Who Knew???

I never thought I would have a family of 4 children. I'm not sure I even gave it a ton of thought in the beginning of our marriage but I definitely knew I would have kids...and ever since Maggie turned one-ish..the thought was almost constant..nagging even..in the back of my mind...that maybe there was one more baby who was meant to come to our home. I thought Maggie was a boy..even at the ultrasound, I didn't believe the tech lady. But we were so happy to get that little girl..she is an absolute joy and makes me smile constantly.

So the thought persisted for months..should we or shouldn't we? Isn't 4 enough? Yes..4 is definitely enough...or not? We could not make up our minds and the decision felt so urgent. So thinking we had one more little boy who was meant to come to our home, we didn't try, but didn't not try and in January I found out I was preggers. It was touch and go during the month of February and I was certain I would miscarry. But that baby hung on and my belly and thighs (insert big sigh) started expanding.

Today at 9:00 am we went in to have our ultrasound and discovered we are pregnant with a GIRL!!!

So the bottom line is that we are super excited for this little angel to come to live with us and she will complete our family! And also I am not as in tune with the spirit as  thought :) I actually started thinking it was a girl about a week ago. TBut it's all good...this way I have no new crib bedding to get..her room is set up..just gotta move little Maggers to a big girl bed and we have girl clothes galore..so now it's onto names which I think are a whole lot easier than boy names.

And yes you might think I am crazy..and I may just be. I mean 5 kids? Nobody has that many kids these days and I almost was hesitant or justifying when people would ask me..but you know what? I am not sorry or ashamed or embarrassed... because in the end..the real end, it's all family. All of it! And we will be a crazy, hormonal house of women...plus Connor who already threw a fit when he found out he was not getting a brother. But we will be happy and I feel complete and I have waited for that feeling (and I know Nate is finally glad I have that feeling:) 4 girls and a boy. Who would have ever guessed it. Certainly not me..but I feel enormously blessed. So here's to breaking out the fat clothes, the chubby cheeks, the pressure in the crotch, the crazy sense of smell, the pumped up boobies (well sort of..I'm not sure there is much hope for mine), the sleeplessness, the exhaustion, the sudden outbreaks of tears...I mean the list goes on.

If I can make it through this emotional, physically demanding time, we will welcome a baby girl this October and we are thrilled....although Nate is having some anxiety about all the girls' basketball he will have to endure (I mean lets face it..it is sort of rough and totally not as exciting to watch as the boys' is..can you say "jump ball" repeatedly)