Enough Faith???

Now I am not writing this for pity or sorrow or money..that is unless you are Bill Gates and have some to spare, No I am simply writing to vent and share. Lately, Nate hasn't had any work. This recession is finally hitting us. And I have to admit, I am shocked. It's like one of those things where you never think crazy things will happen to you but here we are, struggling with very little work. And now I am questioning if I have enough faith or not. I think I do..but do I really? How are we going to pay our bills and all that garbage? We pay our tithing religiously so I know things will work out. it's just becomes a matter of when. It just gets a bit scary and I get this inkling of doubt. So back on my knees I go and pray for strength and humility and a way to figure this one out. Trials right? It could very well be worse..and I know that. The one thing I get frustrated with myself with is our lack of savings. We have a great food storage but not a financial one. It's simply hard to save when you use all you make. But no excuses right? I have a new vow that when things get better..because they will. Savings will become a new priority. I despise that money..such a material item is such an important thing to have...at least some anyways. I always say to myself that if this is our trial in life (that is.. being financially challenged), then it's not so bad. Life could always be so much worse. I have so many blessings..an amazing husband, three beautiful children, our health and the gospel. What more could I ask for? But a trial is a trial and it's still hard. But I will learn and grow and pray that I have faith enough.